Wednesday, April 27, 2011


I just realized today that I have been missing my posts!  I was busy all weekend and then nothing much has been happening so I haven't had much to say.  However, I have been slacking way too much.  I did my weigh in today and was up .4 again this week :(  This isn't terrible considering all of the bad food decisions I made this weekend!  On the other hand, I have not been exercising like I should be.  I know I need to, but by the time I get home from work I have about 2 maybe 3 hours to relax and I need to be sleeping after that.  If I don't get enough sleep the entire day is horrible and then I just want to crash when I get home.  I have a 5K this weekend and I know I can do it, and now I am nervous to do much before it afraid that I will just be too sore by Saturday and not want to run the 5K.  So at this point I need to work on other exercises to still keep me going even if it is not running!  I still feel decent about my body image, but I know I could be doing so much better.  I hate stress because it just causes me to eat too much and what I shouldn't.  It should make me want to workout because that would help reduce the stress, but instead it makes me want to just be lazy :(  I will work on this.  I need to get my happiness book back from my friend so I can re-work on some of the ideas in there.  That may help me get through this slump!  I feel better finally venting and sharing what has been going on in my mind.  My life feels crazy and chaotic right now and a little out of control.  I need to find a way to fit my exercise in and I think this will help me relieve some of this.  I will keep you posted on my progress.

~Chat Soon~

Thursday, April 21, 2011


I felt very spoiled today!  I got to go get a massage this afternoon and it was so fantastic!  I have a great boss and he treated me to an amazing massage.  Now I get to put all my stuff together and go see John tomorrow night and stay the weekend in Cheyenne!  I am just so happy to get out of town for a couple of days.  I am also excited to be going to Colorado to play for a day!  Nothing scheduled just hanging out and enjoying time with the man I love!

I didn't post yesterday, but I did gain 1.2 lbs at my weigh in :(  I actually think it was from NOT eating.  Now I need to focus on exercise and eating well.  If I do these things I will be back in good shape again.  I need to do these things all the time, but I am still struggling with my schedule :(  I have not used my nice days as well as I should have, but that happens.  I am still working on it and refuse to give up.  Just dealing with a little speed bump in the middle of the road!

Well I have too much to do to be ready to go tomorrow so here I go.  I will chat more when I get back :)

~Chat Soon~

Tuesday, April 19, 2011


I may not be a winner at weight loss this week...but I DID my first 5k in 6 years!!!  I wasn't fast and I walked a lot, but I was hoping to be done in 45 mins and I finished around 44:30!!!  It's amazing when you are coming near the clock and know exactly how fast you need to go to make your goal how much fast you can run.  I was thinking about it throughout the run and didn't think the final sprint was going to be very successful but boy was I wrong.  Sure, I was huffing and puffing, but that was expected since I did push hard.  I may try this strategy throughout an entire 5K and maybe that will help improve my time as well!  It was kind of like my speed training that I was doing before.  But if I applied it to the race I may have some great success!  I need to definitely do some more outdoor training but I at least know I can finish and within my timed goals I set :)  I have my next race already planned and that is for April 30th!  I hope my friend can be there again to cheer me on...that was definitely a highlight of my run!  I love her so much :)

Well I need to go chat with the Rec Center people and see about personal training and getting that going.  For my birthday, my friend gave me two personal training sessions and I am planning on purchasing 8 more!  I think this will really help me lose or at least define my body better!  I figure if I go to them they can help me make sure I am doing things correctly and so I get the most out of them as possible.  I still have not worked out a very good schedule for working out regularly, but the weather has been so crappy that I don't want to be outside.  It was quite amazing that I actually ran the 5K tonight with the wind and cold!  I was quite determined though.  I need to be that way about everyday runs though and I need to get my bike out too!  I really can do this if i JUST DO IT!  Always loved that Nike slogan!!!  

Well I am tired and I have another long day tomorrow.  It should be nice so we should be working!  I have a relaxing afternoon scheduled for Thursday.  I go get a one hour massage then my hair cut!  It should be a great day of pampering :)

~Chat Soon~

Sunday, April 17, 2011

Good Life

No matter how many struggles seem to come my way and how frustrated I get with life, I still have a great one.  This weekend is my birthday weekend.  My birthday isn't until tomorrow, but I have been enjoying every day as much as possible.  I even got to see John!  That helps make everything better :)

Friday night I went out and partied with the wonderful people of Pine Haven.  This town is so much fun!!  After a great night of partying I woke up to a beautiful Saturday.  I wasn't feeling so hot at first, but I finally got around and went out for a run/walk.  I made it a mile running then walked the last 2 miles.  It took me about an hour, but I was just enjoying the sunshine and breeze.  I actually had my sweatshirt off because it was too warm while I was running.  I wanted to do more running, but my body really wasn't feeling it and Molly went too hard too fast so she seemed happy when I slowed down.  I came back home and just relaxed until I had to get ready for John to be home!  I was so happy when he walked through the door.  We went down to the bar for dinner and enjoyed a couple of drinks.  It was nice because by the time we got down there everything was winding down.  Apparently it was really crazy in both bars all day!  This morning I woke up hoping it would be as nice as yesterday, but I was disappointed because it was raining. Maybe it's just trying to make me clean the house!  I need to start washing windows. So today would be a good day to try.

I made biscuits and gravy for John this morning and planning on steak dinner this afternoon.  I think I have ideas for the week for dinner, which is good because it should be another busy one.  

Trying to decide what to do Friday, whether to work or not.  I also thought about going in and lining out the guys and then coming back home.  I will maybe wait and see what is happening with John's job this week.  He is feeling a layoff coming soon, but may just have to take it sooner than they say if they can't get overtime in any longer.  it's the only way he makes any money down there.

I had a great moment of success yesterday morning.  I put on my new jeans I bought like a month ago!  They fit!  Not super great, but they do fit and so I decided to try on my wedding dress to see how loose it was now.  I can spin it all the way around on me.  If it didn't have the ridging for shaping the breast section on the dress it wouldn't have any shape at all.  I can easily pinch an inch in that area that would need to be taken in as of right now.  I also can easily pinch and inch on the sides as well!  It was so very exciting.  I look forward to trying to find the next dress I will need.  I kind of hope I can still get this style, but if not I will just have to find something cuter.  I did have a couple of others I really loved that were not available in my size before.  Maybe by the time I need a new dress they will be!  

Well that is all for now.  I have to go spend every moment possible with my honey before he leaves for at least another week :(  

~Chat Soon~

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

Driving the day away

It feels like all I did today was DRIVE!  I went to work this morning at 6am, then left at 8:15 to take Zac to Moorcroft for a psych eval.  We got back to Gillette at 11am then went to my WW meeting at 11:30, back to work around 1pm then left work at a little after 5pm.  Went to a house to take pics for my boss then finally home!  Total driven was 160 miles!

I didn't get in any exercise again.  I am going to work better at planning this into my schedule better this week.  It was cold and damp all day, so I didn't really want to be outside.  Now that I am finally home I am exhausted and I am crashing in bed.

I had great success today at my meeting.  I lost 3 more pounds and that brought my total to 28.6 and I achieved my first 10% goal!  My next goal is to get to 42 lbs lost.  That will be 15%.  Got to take it one step at a time!

Well I am off to bed so I will try to share more tomorrow.

~Chat Soon~

I just realized as I added my weight loss ticker that I have finally gotten below 40 for my BMI!!!  That is another great health benefit!

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Time Management

I am only on my second week of going in earlier and not getting to the gym before going to work.  So far it is not working so well for me.  

I have a tendency to get too busy or maybe just think I am while I am at work that I don't go for my run/walk.  I was ready to go today and then had an issue at the school with Zac.  I really did plan on coming home and going then, but I just couldn't muster the energy or motivation to move my butt :(  I don't know why I have so little get up and go when I really need it.  

I did go Sunday.  We drove the loop around the Coulter Bay side of the lake and from our house and all the way back it is a perfect 5K!  I did most of it running and it was great, but I just couldn't get myself out there yesterday or today.  I know that I just need to do it, but I didn't really want to and thought that may make it worse.  

I did sign up for the 5K next Tuesday!  Whether I run the whole thing or not, I know I will finish!  

Tomorrow I know I have more stresses to deal with and taking more time off from work :(  I really can not afford this right now.  

I also have weigh in tomorrow and I thought I was doing really good until yesterday and today.  I need to find a way to control that better after the weekend.  

This is not one of my most positive blogs, but it is the truth.  I need to find a way to deal with my busy schedule and still eat well and exercise.  If I can't do this I will not be successful.  At least not to the extent that I want to be.  

If anyone has suggestions to help me through this I would love to hear them.

~Chat Soon~

Saturday, April 9, 2011


Tomorrow I need to focus and get my butt moving.  

Yesterday I didn't get out and do any kind of workout.  I had planned on giving myself the day off so it was OK.  However, I didn't get anything in today either :(  I had a case of the "feel bads" from a night of partying last night.  I needed the party, but the hangover sucked!  If I hadn't planned on going to the Cam-Plex garage sale today I would have slept in and that may have helped me feel better.  We went and only found a couple of small treasures.  It didn't help that there were so many people and I didn't feel well so I didn't want to really look into every ones stuff.  We came home and I napped for about 4 hours.  That really seemed to help.  I did a little cleaning on the house, but I have quite a bit more to do.  I hope to do a lot more tomorrow and also exercise.  I need to get some running in.  My goal is to go all the way around the loop on the Coulter Bay side of the lake.  It is over over 2 miles, maybe 3.  That would be perfect for me.

I have done well not snacking much tonight, but it hasn't been easy!  What can I say, when I chill watching TV I want to snack.  I did eat tortellini today with asparagus, but that is all I have really had since lunch yesterday.  I needed to fuel up a little!  Tomorrow my plan is to make Zac's birthday cake.  I have decided on a lemon cake with a lemon cream filling and homemade chocolate butter cream frosting!  I think it will be really delicious :)  I wish John could be home to share with us, but he won't be back until Friday or Saturday night.  Of course we will save him plenty of cake!  

I really can not wait to see him.  I don't like when he is gone for so long, but what do you do.  That is where the work is right now.  At least he will be here to help me celebrate my birthday weekend, not my actual birthday which is on Monday, but that's OK.

Well I think I will hop off of here and see about a little cleaning or maybe just relaxing a little more.  Could just start a list to keep me focused on what exactly I want to get done tomorrow!  That does seem to help.  

~Chat Soon~

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Couldn't get enough

Today was very long day for me.  I woke up at 4:30am so I could hit the gym first then make it to work by 7:15am.  I did accomplish this!  I set the treadmill for 45 mins and started with a 5 min warm up walk followed by 20 mins running.  I probably could have kept going, but my breathing was not very good due to my allergies.  I ended up walking the next 15 mins upping the height on the treadmill.  It was a great day overall. 

I went to my meeting was AWESOME!  I lost 1.8 lbs bringing my total to 25.6 :)  I was sooooo happy for this.  All of my tracking, eating well and exercising really paid off!  

Once I got home I decided I hadn't done enough this morning and still wanted to do more.  So, before dinner I threw on my workout clothes one more time and went for a run/walk with Molly.  She loved it so much and it was awesome for me.  I even went up a pretty good hill for me, considering I always run on a flat surface.  I also did some crunches while watching TV so I felt very productive tonight :)

Today has been a great day!  I hope tomorrow goes as well.  Not sure what my plan is for exercise yet, but I look forward to whatever it may be.  I have thought about going to the park and doing a run/walk there for a change of pace.  Got to get some outdoor running done over these next two weeks!  I'll let you know how it goes if that's what I do.

I am off to bed!

~Chat Soon~

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

I am still around!

I have been so busy that I have not been able to blog.  Here I am now though.  Taking a moment between washing laundry, making dinner and cleaning up the house!  I spent this past weekend at my friends painting for two WHOLE days!  Everything we did turned out amazing :)  It was a lot of fun, but it was also a lot of work.  Nice thing was I was so busy I didn't eat all day.  I finally got back on track due to all this focus, and I didn't even eat well when I did!  However, I got one hell of a workout there!  I was up and down the stairs, crouching, kneeling, stretching, climbing the ladder.  My body ached so bad, but the end result was very good!

I did not make it to the gym Monday or today.  Monday I was too tired and sore and today I was going to go to spinning but I couldn't get out of the office.  I plan on going first thing in the morning and doing my run though.  I may just try and go for a full long run though.  I feel like I need that.  I have planned my first 5K to be April 19th.  The day after my birthday!  It is on a Tuesday at 6pm.  I thought it was kind of odd, but it works for me :)  I am looking forward to it.  Nice to have a defined goal now.

I have been trying to keep track of all my eating more consistently this week.  So far it has made a difference :)  However, today I really wanted chocolate and I caved.  I did calculate the points, but that also put me over for the day.  Hopefully with a good hard workout tomorrow I can balance that out easily.  

Well I need to go rest.  I have been going too much and need to relax.  Going to put laundry in the dryer and finish watching the movie Leap Year in bed!  

~Chat Soon~

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